No News is Good News

There has not been much going on at our house lately. I survived the bed rest and healed from the retrieval, the healing took longer than I thought but it wasn't to bad. I even got to get out of the house over the weekend. James too me on a date Saturday night and we had the Parkinson Walk on Sunday. It was nice to be out and about. I went back to work today and it was really weird being back. I know I wasn't gone for to long but I realized how much I like being at home when I was back today. I am hoping that I can be a stay at home mom, or at least a part time stay at home mom. I don't know if that will be in the cards for us, but it is something I really would like to do. And hey if we do have twins, it might be my only option! I haven't really been feeling anything and I don't know if that is really good or bad. I asked what I should expect and the nurse just kind of looked at me and said "you will over analyze everything you feel, so don't worry about it." I guess she was right.

I have to say this whole process up to know has actually not been too bad. The egg retrieval was the worst, but on a scale on one to ten it would be a 7. Even the big guns for the progesterone in oil shots we do are not to bad. I am still so amazed at how everything comes together. Both on the doctors end with timing everything, and on my end with just having a routine down now. I don't even really think about the shots anymore. Nine o'clock rolls around and I start to rock out the heating pad on my butt and get meds together. They say if you hold it in your hand for a bit before you give the shot it will help the oil to thin out a little. I have noticed that if my leg is not quite right then it hurts more, but even that isn't to bad. I did learn very quickly that the heating pad is helpful before the meds to warm up your muscle, but DO NOT use it after you give the shot. Man my butt hurt so bad for two days, I quickly learned that heat after the fact probably was not a great idea and since have stopped using the heating pad and it has been much better. I still have purple circles on my butt, just so James knows exactly where to inject. Sometimes he will make them look like alien faces or something. Whatever it takes to get me to laugh!

I had a blood test today to make sure my hormone levels were rising correctly and everything looked good. We have to wait until Tuesday June 1st for the pregnancy test, and I am really not a good waiter. I am not good at waiting for anything, I get very impatient and frustrated. Fortunately for me we have a very busy week which will help to keep me occupied. I am ready to find out how everything is going. James and I have been praying for the babies everyday and we talk to them. I know it is all for our benefit, but it is kind of fun to talk to Almond and Pistachio. James will rub my belly and say "hello babies, grow big and strong." It is just so sweet. We ask God to bless us with babies and I know that it will all come on his time. I don't want to get ahead of ourselves, but I also don't want to let this precious time go by and regret it later. You can't add love after the fact, even if our babies are not meant to stay with us they will know they were loved. Sometimes my mind starts to go into "worst case scenario mode," and I have to remind myself that I have done everything I can do, and it is all up to God. He is the master planner and who am I to mess with the Master.

I want to thank everyone who has followed along on our journey. I can not tell you how much it means to us, it is an awesome thing to have such a great support system! Thank you for your continued prayers, they mean the world to us!

Love,

Amanda